The Life &Times of Judy

Goodness, cuz pple find it funny when I talk crap about pple ;p it's retarded, my friends find it entertaining to know when I'm hating on someone. xP ahah

*talking about old crushes &stuff ;P
Me: We almost got together and we tried to be something, but nah it didn't work out. He was such a pussy back then.
Alex: Hahah, whaaat?! What'd you say?
Me: He was such a pussy!
Alex: Oy, say it again!
Me: I'm serious! I would've been his first major girlfriend in high school but he was a big pussy!
Alex: Orfil should hear you say this. x)

17 Mar 2012

I won him that piggy in 2 throws. He wins me that soccer ball in 4. He thought he was gonna beat me at that lil carnival game. x) Oh you silly pig, I have weird tactics to winning basketball games. ;P 

I guess we had a good day together. Kinda did a lot. He came over & we watched part of night @the museum with my brother. Then we went to Costco to help her buy food and bring it to the Encounter. &then we went to the carnival for the school’s 10 year anniversary. This mexican wins me a soccer ball ;) haha. &then we go home and watch cartoons for a bit. I love our days together. :)

29 March 2012

Larissa, Kristofer, &Cris. :) So today, mi novio &i went to a communtiy center to go be with this boy &girl he loves to hang out with. They’re so cute! &then he’s so cute when he’s tutoring the mini-version of himself. But that boy! Ugh! Criticizing me that I’mma be fat cuz of all the snacks in my bag! pshh. lol. it’s all good. he’s still a nice kid. &the girl is really energetic &smart &cheerful. I like her. But ya, we played soccer with them. & at first I really sucked &it took us forever to get to 10 goals. first it was boys vs girls but i was being sucky, so we swithced it to me&cris vs the lil ones. &omg! so close! they beat us by one. ahah. &I was getting better. x) It just really reminded me of the elementary days in Smythe where one of the only things we would do is play soccer. x) &then we play hide and seek. &wow! I did not know there was a mexican version of hide &seek! what in the world! ahaha. it wasnt too different from the “american way” of playing. but like i got confused a lil. but it’s all good. it was fun. it’s just hard talking to them sometimes cuz they barely speak english &cris totally forgot i dont speak spanish. I wish that I was able to speak Spanish. I wish it so bad.

but anyways, these lil kids totally just reminded him of the Up couple when they were younger.  &I just had to go see them for myself.  So i forced myself to get better by today so i could go out for some air and see them. :) I’m still a bit sick , but it was worth it. :) too cute to pass up.

21 Mar 2012

I got into a fight and won, hence the scar &stitches by my mouth.  +I got a cute lil peace sign tattoo x)

Home town buffet yo! Stuffing my face w/ my love while we celebrate a Kike’s burdaay. yum. im so full but i freaking forgot the cookie i was gnna take home! they have like the best cookies, mainly one of the only reasons i like it there. ;P

haha Kike’s not even in the group picture. x)

&my boyfriend’s a stupid slut -.- x) haha.

10 Mar 2012

haha he was so cute today. I wanted to take a picture of the sky (but it didnt turn out too well) &then he draws this behind me so that we can stand in the middle of it and look at the view of the sun and ocean

Later I thanked him for being cute &ya, he said that. &then I told him, no rip current will ever pull you away from my heart either<3

Beachy days boagie boarding is what I love to do. &I love to do it with the one I love. :)

Mission Bay Beach is the coldest ocean water ever! Omg! My feet were dying! I can handle IB &Coranado but dang. So cold there! ahaha. But it probably sure is the nicest. But dude, the waves sucked the day we went ;) so idk, I don’t think I’ve gone to that beach before we just went today

Rip currents are really scary tho! There were so many when we were there! I couldn’t move out of it for awhile and it was a good thing I wasn’t by myself &Cris was there to help pull me. aha. dude. still fun. 

This last minute plan worked out absolutely great. :) it was totally organized too. I love having friends that drive me around for the fun of it ;P Guys are so organized in planning when they REALLY wanna do something. x)

So I didn’t get accepted to UCI or UCSD which were my very top 2 choices that I wanted to go to. &I totally accepted the fact that I wasn’t good enough because I know I could have done a whole lot better with my grades over the years.  I’ve accepted the fact that I’m not that smart but I am definitely a hardworker. So who gives a crap if I go to community college first and transfer.  It’s just I didn’t wanna do that. I wanted to go to UCI and just be a lil far from home so that I can get away from everything in SD. I love SD but it’s just not working for me right now.  I work on a totally different schedule now from my parents &they dont understand that when I need something done I need it done in my time brackets. Ugh. My plan now is either go to Grossmont Community College &then transfer asap after I get my general ed. done. &hopefully I get into UCI or UCSD. If worse comes to worse I’ll pick another UC or CSU.  Or Plan B: Merced may be an option to start my 2 yrs there first &then transfer to UCI or UCSD. idk. But I will know in a few weeks what I will do for my future. &it’s tough. but you gotta do what you gotta do.

Fuck everything. This is not week. With the exception of Valentine’s day. I guess. I failed yet another thing. Because of my stupid eyesight &heavy heart full of stress that the family gives me instead of supporting me. Thank you for helping me fail from one big mistake I made. I felt horrible waking up today. &I knew I was gnna cry whether I passed or not. But I wanted this. I wanted this so bad. I wanted to prove that I could do this. I could do it without any of you there. Ugh. Idk if I’m excited for the weekend or not. Cuz I’m just sad maan. Sad. I havent been this sad or cried this much since forever ago. &my period never gives me cramps or make me feel terrible. But it did this week. Oh cool. Well I’m off to go die on my bed for an hour before I go back to school so that I can go to Stringfest. Oh look, another reminder that when I go see hiw good the other schools are compared to ours, self-esteem will lower deeper &deeper. Why in the world does my education system for me suck? Is it really just me to blame? Whatver. I dont wanna blame my emotions, but it’s not fair.

Don’t get me wrong. Everybody in my life has been absolutely wonderful since they became a part of my life but..

It’s kinda hard ya know. When somebody falls in love. I always told myself I wouldnt let a boy take away time from my friends the day I would finally get a boyfriend. Because it’s always happened to my friends when they got a boyfriend. Of course their significant other is special and important to them now &I respect that. But I couldn’t help but think like they would forget me. Or are starting to forget me. We wouldn’t talk as much as we used to cuz they’d ALWAYS be talking to their love. Or they reply super dupers slow to me always. Or they would be disappointed deep inside cuz I’m not that special someone they specifically would wanna talk to. &idk. It’s just idk, you have to get used to the way things change because relationships definitely change people. Sometimes, your best friend isn’t your best friend anymore because their significant other took your place. I mean sometimes you can’t complain because that person makes your friend super happy &that makes me happy knowing someone can love her the way she deserves to be loved, but like that doesn’t mean my love and friendship isn’t as great. Idk. Cuz sometimes you do feel it die down. We’ll always be there for each other. But sometimes we don’t always realize it because everybody has their own special someone. &sometimes they start to think that that’s all they truly have. Or what they assume they think they only have. 

idk. I’ve been just thinking about this. Because I have a boyfriend. &i dont wanna lose my friends. cuz like I’ve seen it happen. It’s the saddest thing. She can be so in love with the guy but what if he decides to leave one day or something. What is she going to do without friends.

I do have friends. But sometimes it feels weird to me because idk, i actually do keep to myself a lot. I do talk about my personal stories or whatever but like i won’t always spit it out. idk, i have different kinds of friends and i love them and being with them, but i can’t help to feel out of place with them sometimes ya know. i have different “cliques” of friends honestly. &i’ll fit in with them somehow. but idk why i feel so weird. maybe sometimes cuz i am a lil left out sometimes cuz they’ll come up with these inside jokes i’m not a part of or think of memories in which i wasnt there for. &it’s like do they really think i’m there for them? they don’t really go to me much anymore for problems they have or anything anymore. they go to someone else. &it’s just like you already know i’m here for you. but idk. sometimes my efforts suck &aren’t enough. &i dont like that about myself. 

I love it. Having an adventure day with your lover &then you get so tired from that day. But the next day you see them again &it’s a kickback day to just relax. Perfect timing. :) ahah. Good plans this week. Downtown &ice skating + Crazy, Stupid, Love movie &youth=FANTASTIC<3